Savana Rinjani

Detachment. This word caught my attention when I was reading an article about self-healing on a website. It is the opposite of attachment and I expect it would be an interesting topic to discuss as these days some people feel easily attached to mundane things. Afterward, I googled to learn more about it (mostly from Pinterest) and got startled, like, Damn, why I just found out this lesson by now?! Here's my personal summary on detachment. It has many beautiful deep thoughts but I love to start with two: 1. Allow others to be who they are 2. Allow yourself to be who you are By fully understanding these lessons, things will come lighter. I feel more relieved to accept any kind of situation (not only about a heartbreak thingy), especially during hard times. One big point I slowly realize is that I can't control things that have happened, but I can always control my response to them, right? I can choose the action that I'm aware would be the best version of myself. B...

"The only constant is change." - Heraclitus My friend sent me that quote after I conveyed something to her, "When I graduated, my desire was to get a job far far away from home. That was why I felt very happy when I got a chance to work in Atambua. However, I didn't expect that a feeling could change. Now, I just want to spend more time at home, haha, I don't know why." A quote from Heraclitus makes me suddenly realize that a feeling I've once had is not wrong. A feeling could change someday. And, probably, there's nothing wrong about showing an emotion we experience. The only wrong part is some people in our society cannot accept any expression that they don't commonly see. A social construction forces us to welcome only values the society has been believing since a long time ago. Pardon. I'm just getting random. This morning, I found that quote and could relate it a little bit to something I experienced in my last relationship. One day,...

Hello. It's been a long time. Many things happened, the painful ones. Thus, I need a little time to gather all the courage and get back to my normal rhythm. 2017 was just as wonderful as my previous years. I signed up for several trail races. The adrenaline rush and I enjoyed it a lot. I was in my best condition both physically and mentally. Closing the year, a heartbreak happened, the worst I've ever had in my life. I hit the lowest point as a human being. The only mindset I currently had about myself was just uselessness. It led me once to a thought to donate one of my kidneys if it could make me feel useful again. LOL. "Sometimes, we forget to appreciate a tiny progress we have made on a day. We only focus on the big result. I give you one Chinese proverb, man man lai. Pelan-pelan aja. Santai, Git. Apresiasi setiap progres, walaupun kecil." RD, 2018 Regarding the hard times I have been facing, I just realize I did many things in recent months. I le...

1.         Eat fruits. Your body deserves goodness. 2.         True friends will stay. No matter how long you haven’t met. 3.         So, do not leave those who TRULY CARE about you. 4.         You are responsible for your own happiness. Do not depend on others. 5.         Do not live to impress others. Just EXPRESS yourself and show your true colors. 6.         Travel NOT to escape, but to redefine yourself. 7.         Call or text your parents more often. They actually miss you. 8.         Traditional cuisine is the best food on earth. 9.         Relationship is hard. 10.     Stay single until you know exactly why you want t...

Agustus lalu saya mengikuti kegiatan “Kawan Cerita”. Sebuah wadah menebar inspirasi melalui surat yang dikirim untuk adik-adik di Sorong Selatan (Sorsel). Surat yang terpilih akan diteruskan kepada adik-adik Sorsel dan si penulis surat akan mendapat balasan. Seru sekali, bukan? Sejak mendapat email bahwa surat saya terpilih (bulan September), saya menunggu-nunggu balasan dari adik-adik menggemaskan disana. And here it is! Dua hari lalu saya mendapat email dari Kawan Cerita yang berisi sebuah surat untuk saya. Surat balasan dari seorang adik manis bernama Petronela Karesago di Saga. And I couldn’t hold my tears (haha, lebay). Bahagia sesederhana ini ya :’) Surat yang saya kirim untuk adik-adik Sorsel bisa baca disini . Dan di bawah ini surat balasannya. Terima kasih, Nela. Balasan dari kamu sungguh mood booster buat kakak. Semoga suatu hari kakak bisa main ke Saga! Halo kakak Gita, Idaga Nasito (selamat Pagi)! Perkenalkan, namaku Petronela Karesago. Nama panggilanku Nel...

Ada kalanya rajutan kata Tak mampu menggeser kehadiran nyata Sepanjang apapun, seindah apapun Sebab jemari dapat digenggam Kata-kata hilang seiring malam Ada kalanya lembut suara di ujung sana Menjelma selimut paling hangat Rengkuh malam-malam dingin Dan segala ingin Ada kalanya agenda bersua Ditulis ulang oleh Yang Kuasa Menyisakan sekali lagi asa Selain gumpalan sesak di dada Ada kalanya jumpa yang ditunggu Terbungkus diam yang syahdu Gelora cerita mendadak sirna Oleh dekap hangat tanpa jeda Ada kalanya sang waktu Lebih memilih untuk beku Ketimbang menjadi alasan Tak tuntasnya rindu dua insan Dan obat perekat paling juara Katanya doa

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